54 – It’s The Dancing

7/18/23

Have you ever noticed that resolve and pain are not mutually exclusive?

I’ve been reminded that
there’s this intuitive knowing that something isn’t quite right,
that it’s time to let go,
that there’s something different for you ahead.
I’ve been reminded that
there’s bravery to act on that knowing.
To feel pain
and to overcome by living with it,
by trusting that time will pass
and that you are strong enough to bear it.
 

I’ve been reminded that
it’s all rooted in the simple truth that
love doesn’t always equal permanence.
 

That’s why love and grief are always dancing.
Incapable of being separated.
To have one, you must accept the eventual debut of the other.
 

I get “missing pangs” all of the time –
I bet you do, too.
(it’s the dancing)
I miss the rolling green grassy hills behind my dad’s house.
I miss watching my grandma sit at her sewing machine.
I miss Colorado sunsets and summer 2015.
 

They are a gift, these pangs.
Love past is still love felt,
and I’ve been trying to be brave.

Lightly,
Leah